Lags to the max maaan,

So i'm lagging on the unnecessary study guide i shall create. Not much of a lag if its unnecessary ;P haha. But you know, i feel proud of myself. 5 A's and 2 B's. Yes i am bragging, because..I CAN ACTUALLY DO IT XD haha. And all it takes is a little work, not as much as it seems. Usually we all end up spending like 4 hours on a project and we complain, but if we cut down all our slack work, its really ony like an hour and a half. Agree? Well that's how it works for me.

School off topic-ness. Today when i came home after being with DJ, i was in my room. I needed God's help, and so i asked for it. He inspired me through music. So in my room i free danced and free-sang the truth of the world and it felt so good. I never found more comfort in dancing and singing than i ever have before. I became sweaty and speechless, but i was thankful for becoming tired and able to express myself. I feel a new me coming on, and i hope i have enough strength to bring it to the world.

More off topic-ness. My feelings keep constantly wavering about you, and now i am officially re-confused. I either like you this much or that much, it just keeps changing and i'm not sure where i'm supposed to be. I ask God for his help, and i keep hearing different things. Maybe the devil's tryna like ruin it for me since i'm getting closer to God, but its still hard for me to figure out which one's God. Stay or leave, i don't know ! It's a struggle for me, but i don't feel the weight of it on my shoulders. I dont feel much weight on my shoulders. Only how heavy my backpack is when i wear it, but hey at least it isn't as heavy as the cross that Jesus had to bear on his shoulders.

More proud-ness. I feel so proud of myself, that i read the Bible now, i pray, i'm opening up, and i have good grades. There's lots of drama in my life that i am starting to become aware of, but somehow the good things still stay on the up-side. I thank God for that :) i thank him soooo much, i dont know how i became so worthy of having him by my side and support me. I've cried almost everyday so far this week ever since saturday, but somehow that still didn't bother me after. Maybe its cus i'm such a cry baby hahahhaa. No matter if i am, that's how i get things out of me, and how i let things go. Crying helps, i cry for everything.

Well its time to get some water and go concentrate. I hope i pass this test, i'm glad the culinary test wasn't something i failed. I'm glad i get the chance to be able to learn how to cook :)


LOVE YOU GOD <3 and everyone else who needs my unconditional acceptance ! (or at least i hope i have unconditional acceptance)