Dear family,

I always feel so bad everytime i miss the family parties. "Then do something about it," except that usually i can't. It's either i'm too far, i stay for a short amount of time, or i'm at a yfc event. I miss you guys, and don't trip. Please don't give me those guilt trips, it makes me upset. Going to an even is my choice, but the rest aren't. Don't think i'm always ditchin' cus i want to, cus i don't wana leave you guys when i'm actually there. It isn't much fair that i always have to go down there tho, and you guys not up here. I know some of you can't come up here cus your parents won't drive, but you know how hard it is to find a way to get back up here when i DO go down there? And the fact that i actually get to go down there sometimes, you nevah come up here unless theres like a party or something. Come up to chill, yeah? i wish it was that easy and do-able. If that were the case, then we'd be closer than ever. Or maybe that's just me :p i can't compete with the inside jokes you guys have, and i don't know what you guys are talking about half the time. Maaaaaaybe since i got my dad's side personality and not my mama's that i feel a difference. But when we're finally able to drive HAHA we can drive xD to see each other IN THE MIDDDLE ! except some cousins can drive already xP but yeah. ahah sorry guys ):
luff you tho <3

-i hope they dont see me as a ditcher -.-