this is for SAWUH !

saraaaaah. i just read somemore of your blogs ! about your life. okay well..

yeah, i know that you're younger than me, but somehow you inspire me even through your messed up blogs. why? i wish i could express my feelings like you. i'm like a tiny emotion box hider if that made sense xP when i'm sad, i don't express it most of the time because i hide it so no one else would be effected. people can see in your world with their own eyes because of your words. not only your life, but maybe many others and truths. you speak the truth girl ! about those "fml" things. yenno ? and you say you're still happy ! see :) my bestfriend's happy even though her life is ugly. you're brave sarah, and i admire that too. a lot. i wish i could be brave and inspiring xP people give you a lota crap? well i'll try to help ! though i'm not good at it xD i plan one of your closest friends for life, okay? okay :D haha. I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU ! hopefully i geta see you this week. if i don't, it'd be the first week without seeing you this summer Dx o&i also wish i could worship God like you can :) i do love him, but i think you love him more. xP i wouldn't know hehe. but i'll try to get you something from six flags ! and lets do lotsa stuff this summer because NO MORE SUMMER SCHOOOL ! well i'm getting off of track xD so i'll end it here. there's probably lotsa more stuff, but sooner or later i'll end up telling you orrrr you'll see it through heeere or SOMETHING !

I LOVE YOU SARAH EMILLE JACOT ! with my liiife :D and don't forget that.

<3

a bagel from yesterday.

yaaay, final day of summer school ffor this year and hopefully FOR THE REEST OF MY LIFE ! anyways, yesterday i got another cheese bagel from my teacher bcs i help him. the other side (troublemakers that don't give any respect at all) got mad at me xP soooo i got upset because i can't fight for myself. yenno, so i wrote it all down on a paper, wishing i coulda said some of this stuff to them. well here it is :

I dont feel obliged to share this with them bcs itd feel like they're using me. When do they ever talk to me? only when they have to or want something. its not like theyve ever talked to me before. have they No shame? probably not, They must be used to asking strangers for food. they're just selfish, they might think i'm selfish for not sharing, but they're selfish and inconsiderate bcs all they want is this bagel and all their side comments to every little thing, they disregard peoples' feelings. we all can hear you, and that's the only reason they talk to me. if they think being rude would get them far, then they'd better think again. they could've been nice to me but they talk to me as if i'm a friend of theirs that they can easily be rude to. they aren't guinely nice or just nice, or give respect at all. how the fxcking hell do they expect me to share if they don't even give respect to the authorizing person in the classroom (teacher). if they can't respect him, what makes you think that they'd respect me ? why would they, i'm just a tiny little asian girl with nice shoes who can't fight for herself. if they think that could stomp all over me, i wouldn't let them. oh yeah, pciking a fight would tooooooooooootally get them that bagel. SYKE. i dont feel obliged to share with people that only talk to me for the possessions i have, i don't appreciate it, but i'm sure they don't care. why the hell would they? but i'm mostly mad at myself. i wish i could stand up for myself. i wish i could speak these words, but in the end they only lie in the back of my tongue and in the shadows.

wellp yeah, and something bad happened today.


aidan peed in my room DDDDDDDDDDx

but thats about it xD i'm skippin last day for SIX FLAGS FOOO' ! its my cousin anivey's burfdae.




SHOUT OUT TO HER ! HAPPY BURFDAE ANIVEYLOOOOVE~! :)

o man

what an interesting fact i found out in summer school today (history). Joan of Arc was burned on the day of my birthday.
oh last night i had a dream about my cousin erika? it was weird. i barely remember but i think she was like mad at me or something. and this whole cousin thing, i don't like it when they give the guilt trips. too maaany, yenno? o well ! that's why i stay quiet around them, i might say something wrong :P nyeh

bored.

i'm so bored, OUT OF MY MIIIIND ! i've never been so bored. i'd just go and roll around on the floor just to complain about my boredness. i wana go to the birfdae party, no fair. so booooooooooored Dx

snakes that snigger

sarah would only know what i'm talking about, especially since she just left my house. HAHAHA mysterious person ;) weeeeird, it had to be A_ _ _ _ ! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ____ ____ ____ ____ O_O we wouldn't stop laughing like for 30 minutes about that XD frkn funny ! mysterious people ! they're so strange, R_______, but especially A_______ hahahhaa !

okay okay okay, we're gnna try to get closer to that person >;) watch, alll the friends would be listening to us TRY to talk on the phone to it. IT hahhahahha jkay..or am i o_O lmao.

today was a fun day. we had smoothie king. and talked about weird things ;)

ghahahha i love sawuh<3

it's been a while..

since i've been on this ! haha i've been busy, sorrry . well i went to casey's & rendall's house today :) first time ! i like exploring peoples houses. rendall's really wasn't what i pictured but it was still cool & fun ! i finally met his little sister :) and i surprised dj there tooo. i've been hcka missing people lately though ! even the ones i barely talked to but blahhh. i've just been wondering how they are :3 i've been wanting to call soooo many people ! stupid summmah schoool & broken charger...well tomorrow's last sesssion of schoool, woot ! but next week, the second session starts arready. booooo second sesssion, i dislike history classs.. -.o well hopefully i getta see sawuh tomorrow ! i gots a disposable camera for pictures of just her and me :) our memory camera ! since, yenno, i lost my digital like a while ago.