a bagel from yesterday.

yaaay, final day of summer school ffor this year and hopefully FOR THE REEST OF MY LIFE ! anyways, yesterday i got another cheese bagel from my teacher bcs i help him. the other side (troublemakers that don't give any respect at all) got mad at me xP soooo i got upset because i can't fight for myself. yenno, so i wrote it all down on a paper, wishing i coulda said some of this stuff to them. well here it is :

I dont feel obliged to share this with them bcs itd feel like they're using me. When do they ever talk to me? only when they have to or want something. its not like theyve ever talked to me before. have they No shame? probably not, They must be used to asking strangers for food. they're just selfish, they might think i'm selfish for not sharing, but they're selfish and inconsiderate bcs all they want is this bagel and all their side comments to every little thing, they disregard peoples' feelings. we all can hear you, and that's the only reason they talk to me. if they think being rude would get them far, then they'd better think again. they could've been nice to me but they talk to me as if i'm a friend of theirs that they can easily be rude to. they aren't guinely nice or just nice, or give respect at all. how the fxcking hell do they expect me to share if they don't even give respect to the authorizing person in the classroom (teacher). if they can't respect him, what makes you think that they'd respect me ? why would they, i'm just a tiny little asian girl with nice shoes who can't fight for herself. if they think that could stomp all over me, i wouldn't let them. oh yeah, pciking a fight would tooooooooooootally get them that bagel. SYKE. i dont feel obliged to share with people that only talk to me for the possessions i have, i don't appreciate it, but i'm sure they don't care. why the hell would they? but i'm mostly mad at myself. i wish i could stand up for myself. i wish i could speak these words, but in the end they only lie in the back of my tongue and in the shadows.

wellp yeah, and something bad happened today.


aidan peed in my room DDDDDDDDDDx

but thats about it xD i'm skippin last day for SIX FLAGS FOOO' ! its my cousin anivey's burfdae.




SHOUT OUT TO HER ! HAPPY BURFDAE ANIVEYLOOOOVE~! :)